We walk in time.

I walked in time.

(Half a kilometer),

(On Langford Road).

I walked,

In Time,

Between Time,

In myself,

Between my-selves,

I walked in time.

Sometimes in the Past

I walked.

Sometimes in the Present,

(Present!!!),

Future tense (haha!).

Future tense,

Present:

I walked in time.

(Half a kilometer),

(On Langford Road).

[I walked,

In Time,

Between Time,

In myself,

Between my-selves ...]

Making Pictures of Mother Mary and her son Infant Jesus,

(Wondering how people practice their faith,

What do they put their faith into?)

Where is my faith?

Where is my trust?

I walked in time.

Between time.

Within myself,

Between my-selves.

Wondering what faith was all about ...

Wondering what I was all about.

Wondering what I am made of,

Wondering what people are made of.

Back in time,

(Just a little bit)

I danced to California Dreaming

I fought

With myself,

Shedding a few tears,

As I sat with complete strangers who were trying to help me pay my electricity bill (haha!)

And I kept fighting with myself,

They were struggling with their machines,

Trying to help me pay my electricity bill,

While I kept fighting with myself

And dancing to California Dreaming

Fighting with myself,

Dancing to California Dreaming

Fighting with myself,

Dancing to California Dreaming

Fighting with myself,

Dancing to California Dreaming

Fighting with myself,

Dancing to California Dreaming

Fighting with myself,

Dancing to California Dreaming

Until the bill was paid

And I cried

And gave in to myself.

I am vulnerable.

Breakable.

Walking in time,

I am vulnerable,

Breakable,

Malleable.

Walking in time,

I danced,

I Cried,

Paid the electricity bill,

Enlightened myself.

As Garth Brooks says, "The greatest conflicts are not between between two people, but between one person and himself."

i guess it's over

Praying they don't make me take off my WWGRD wristband. How sad is it that is the only thing I am thinking right now. Come on Pens, you can shut em up in Game 5! Go Pens!

We aren't friends anymore and both of us know it, but neither of us publicly announce it. We are both just going to on pretending that it isn't true. I'd like to believe that she misses me, but I don't have enough confidence to do it.

Lonely Girl went away for a weekend trip to the lake with some mutual friends, friends that she wouldn't have known if she didn't know me, and met someone there. She went out to the clubs last night and apparently the someone she met is here in [insert college town name here] and met her at the clubs. Well, they hooked up last night and she seemed less enthusiastic about it than a normal red-blooded woman who just got some good cock would. And we used to be best friends so, I know what her uncomfortable-not-wanting-to-talk-about-it sounds/looks like. She was like that when she got together with her last one time fuck buddy. They had been pussy footing around the fact that they both wanted to do each other. So when they actually did hook up and she had the attitude of 'Yeah, we did it', I knew it wasn't because the sex was bad, or maybe it was, like I said she didn't elaborate.

Some background would probably help here; 6 months ago Lonely Girl accused me of using people for sex. I am going to try to make this sound unbiased or defensive or like she was totally in the wrong; but I have only had 2 partners and with both of them I waited to have sex for at least 4 months and we were in a monogamous, official relationship. I have never had a one night stand, and I am in love with the second of my two partners. I know that I said I was going to be as unbiased as possible and I am trying, but what I write next might not come across as that way. Lonely Girl has had at least 8 and maybe 10 partners in the last year and a half and has not been in a relationship with any of them. She has in fact never been in a relationship. And three days after accusing me of using people for sex she fucked the second previously mentioned one night fuck buddy.

I wonder how it feels to have empty, meaningless, multiple one night stands. I feel sorry for her because she is over 21 and doesn't know anything about men. I once asked a very good friend of mine, who I tried to set her up with, what it was about her that he found unattractive. Because she is cute, and a very fun girl. And I always had a blast with her, but she just repulses men when it comes to actually dating them. They of course want to fuck her brains out because, they are men and she offers them one time sex with no strings attached. He said that it was ineffable, something that couldn't be described. It was the awkward moments where there would be that silence, the ones that you don't know how to fill properly. The ones where most people go 'So, how 'bout those Yankees?' type comments. Not that I am a Yankee fan. He said that it was they way that she handled those silences, it was they way that she approached conversations, it was the way that she just plain interacted with him. He said that it was everything. And since I have tried to set her up with at least 10 different guys and albeit a good 3 of those guys did turn out to be complete fuckwits and douchebags that leaves 7 guys that were genuine, nice, date worthy people. To digress: the same night that she hooked up with the second stated guy, Guy A, there was another man that I tried yet again to set her up with and she said that with Guy A she could get screwed. So instead of choosing to go talk to and get to know a date worthy guy, she decided to have sex instead. Again 3 days after telling me that I used people for sex. Back on the right train of thought, what did those 7 guys have in common? Guess. That is correct: her. It isn't them, it's her. There is something about her that men aren't attracted to. And as long and as many times as I have discussed it with my good friend, I still am totally mystified about what it is that men don't find attractive about her personality.

Deep down, whether she is willing to admit it or doesn't even know it herself, a part of her knows that she is a big, fat hypocrite for accusing me of what she does herself. And if I felt pity, I would give it to her.

Whisper

I write listening to California Dreaming by Mamas and Papas. Nothing could be more appropriate than this.

All the leaves are brown ...

So these days, as I take stock of myself and everything around me, there are things and issues that I think about and feel amused about and muse about ...

Making conversation is one such issue that I have been thinking about. Ah, the joys and anxieties of making conversation ...

You wonder whether you are being stupid, you wonder whether you are coming across as smart, you wonder whether you will run out of things to say, you wonder when there will soon be a silence ...

(Dreaded Silence!!!!)

Will the silence be short?...

Will it live long?...

Will you have anything to say soon? ...

Will you have anything to say sooner than later? ...

Will the words come immediately? ...

What will happen if the silence prolongs? ...

Will the conversation just end? ...

Will you then have to drift to talking to someone else? ...

Will the person you are conversing with get bored and move on to talk to the next person around? ...

All the leaves are brown and the sky is grey, I've been for a while on a Wednesday ...

If I didn't tell, I could leave today ...

California Dreaming on such a Wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Start Of Something New

You Are The Music In Me

Will post again when blog is moved

today in french, duplessis was subbing again and we convinced her to let us watch madeleine. well, we didn't, but tyler and christian did, and the rest of the class don't give a damn about it. i never knew how annoying their voices were until today. the rest of the class played cards while tyler and christian watched good ol' classic madeleine.

then in math, we were finishing up our math work which i just copied akhila's work, because, honestly, the heat's gotten me lazy like a ladybug.  and that's about it.  i hate math with a strong passion, thanks.

then came science when we were congratulating dr. raskop about getting the vice principal position next year.  and then we did this wicked solar system lab outside.  hahaha it was way easy.  due monday, gotta remember that.  oh, and we were constantly talking about how our english sub was so horrible yesterday, i mean seriously.  bashing on her is fun.

ENGLISH WAS FREEZING.  the ac was blasting like crazy and i was almost sneezing.  but so, fifth period totally got screwed for messing up yesterday while fourth period and sixth period got to finish watching the wizard of oz ('39 version, the best) "pay no attention to the man behind the curtain!" is classic.

so lunch was same as usual.  i brought sushi and instead of nine pieces, i ended up with three and half.  taken by michaela, amelia, marie, molly, and half to yvonne.  oh, and stephanie. -sigh- i was like superhungry during pe and history, oh man.  but i was too busy  thinking about the heat.

so peeeeeee was torture.  we ran a lap, and played softball for the rest of the period.  i'm on team four with kerry, nadine, casey, jackson, and jordan, so we're pretty cool with it.  I GOT A BALL AND GOT SOMEONE OUT.  i was so happy.  it was awesome.

sixth period we had this indian sub.  she was pretty cool.  stupid rose p. talked back most of the time.  and trent and gene and the rest of them were annoying as usual.  haha, daniel, gary, colin, and paige were playing cards for most of the time.  so were grant and rose l.  ehhhhh and i totally cooled off with the ac in that class.  i'll appreciate that for the most part.

after school i had tutoring as usual, and it went well blah blah.  while i was tutoring george, he kept moving all over the place ahhhhhhhhh so annoying.  but anyways, it was pretty cool and everything.  i should be getting paid soon.  xDDDDD

now off to homework. T_____T

amites, cheryl.

limited edition

or

new

written across the label we have
some new items in our kitchen:

*mint crisp M&Ms (they have
indiana jones on the package)
*honey mustard pringles
*white cheddar cheetos
*snickers 'adventure bar'
it's flavored with coconut and
exotic spices (whatever that is)
this one also has indiana jones
on the package.
*three packages of strawberry
milkshake oreos!!  they are back
in our local safeway.  (don't be
alarmed...only TWO of them are
for me and julie. the third package
is to give to friends. everyone
should know the party that this
oreo throws in your mouth!!!)

 do you see any pattern in this
limited edition situation we have
going on here??

let me spell it out for you...

i t ' s   a l l   J U N K ! ! ! !

pure
100%
junk

p.s. i'm now a fan of
new products too. 
it's not just julie.

cory + betsy + kj =
a happy walk around
our block,
holding hands.
literally, just this one block
with no errands.

cory + caroline + kj =
a ballerina and her parents
enjoying a late lunch
at the west side diner
and then off to watch
her dance,
so happy that her dad
was watching.

cory + nathan + henry =
a bike ride to chelsea piers,
some video games + dinner,
and a happy race home.

thankful for the
happy configurations
in our family
today.

oh, and another
shout out to
the u.s. court system
for sending my husband
home in the early afternoon
for us to enjoy him.

The first thing I'd like us to do is get rid of the headless concrete squirrel in the front entrance way used as a doorstop. 

I am ambitious, if anything.

Thanks for your support, prayers, and kind words!

~Maggie

What makes the Sufi? Purity of heart;
Not the patched mantle and the lust perverse
Of those vile earth-bound men who steal his name.
He in all dregs discerns the essence pure:
In hardship ease, in tribulation joy.
The phantom sentries, who with batons drawn
Guard Beauty's place-gate and curtained bower,
Give way before him, unafraid he passes,
And showing the King's arrow, enters in.

R. A. Nicholson

'Persian Poems', an Anthology of verse translations
edited by A.J.Arberry, Everyman's Library, 1972

Think about it.

Thanks for Tuning In

Its a dangerous precedent to set, saying, as the court in effect did, that societies have no democratic right to define and establish sexual mores and customs. We may disagree, in a free society, about how loose or restrictive these mores ought properly to be, but for a court to say that it is beyond the prerogative of a democratic government to define marriage is troublesome.

However you dice this issue, it remains one concerning the degree to which public morality impinges upon private choice, and unless one is willing to disestablish all laws based on sexual mores, then one has to admit a role for government here. Is it wise to disestablish laws on bigamy or incest or pedophilia? No, I don't think so, nor do I think most people think so. But if the courts set a standard by which the government cannot legitimately codify social mores, then how do we oppose the kind of nonsense we saw recently out of the FLDS polygamist compound that was raided?

Make no mistake, I am not comparing homosexuality to incest or pedophilia. God forbid! As I said, I support the right of gays and lesbians to marry and share in the privileges and responsibilities of straight Americans. I'm saying, rather, that by completely nullifying the government's authority to discriminate on matters of sexual choice, we will certainly be opening ourselves up to more than gay marriage. I simply think lawsuits are a poor way to deal with these sorts of questions, which have implications reaching far beyond the narrow issue at hand.

I should add that the California legislature voted to grant marital privileges to homosexuals, but the bill was vetoed by Governor Schwarzenegger, who said the issue should be properly dealt with in the court system. This incident shows us two things about Arnold: he knows little about the Constitutional principle of distribution of powers, or else he would know it was properly the legislature's prerogative; and that he has no political backbone whatsoever. "Save us, o wise and unaccountable judges, from the perils of making our own fucking decisions!"

Peace

In other news, I just bought three more paints.  My unofficial decorators are helping me out a lot at this point and doing a very good job!  ;)

Just finished a bit of drywall work.  Will need to prime next to begin the foyer.

I need to do some finishing up of the first coat of the great room.  With such a large room, it's been better to work in areas rather than tackle the whole thing at once.  I'll give it all a finish coat, after the baseboards go back on, after the flooring goes back on. 

For the front room, I need men to help us move the piano before I can do much else in there. 

This weekend we share the plan of salvation for the Upward adults.   Pray!  Every year it is hard to try to present that in a way that is easy enough for anyone, yet answers enough quesitons for those harder to reach. Pray for the balance.

De tre champagner vi blev overrakt af elevrådet blev drukket i vores rus af sejren samme aften og i dag står Det Gyldne Bånd og pynter på mit skrivebordet. Da jeg ved adskillige henvendelser er blevet bedt om at lægge filmene ud på nettet, kan linkene herunder lede på rette vej til de produktioner min gruppe har lavet:

Mentior (Credo Quia Absurdum Est)

The Day the World Went Away

Egen produktion; Val Thorens 2008 (Skiferie)

Når al ting nu engang når til en ende, vil jeg gerne indrømme, at navnet på mit produktionshold muligvis inkluderer 'Bad Acting' (hvilket ingen af os kan løbe fra), men uden evnerne og masser af 'Skills' ville vi aldrig have været i stand til at skrue filmene sammen. Lad det blive opfattet som en tak til mine venner snarere end et forsøg på en omgang ironisk selvros.

Som tidligere nævnt var dette afslutningen på Mediefag, men som McCartney i sit seneste album synger, så er det vel blot hvad man gør det til:

At the end - It's the start of a journey.

hmmmm.

i'm going to guess that
o v e r c r o w d i n g
is a rookie's mistake, eh?

i'm two for two on that one.

ps - thanks to the kind ladies
@ clarie's garden center
for helping us choose
the flowers last saturday.

Man, I've wanted a typewriter for years! I'd be so excited if it works out :D

I've also been working on my term paper and writing emails to the people I'll be working with next year. I can't believe how good God is.

my dinner! whee.

so utterly tiredd.

Right now all unsubscriber eyes are on the practice of waterboarding. President Bush says it is an acceptable 'enhanced interrogation technique'

So far 32639 people have un-subscribed. Another issue is

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After 2nd sitting...

Next appointment June 12. Hopefully we finish this f'er.

Whoever saw me doing something just now after debrief but don't know the reason why, please don't anyhow jump into conclusions okay. Haha cos the reason isn't really something known(it's something personal haha), so if you really wanna know why, then ASK ME. Don't anyhow think. HAHA

Anyway, from next week onwards I'll stop using the com during the weekdays. So... I'm considering closing down the blog cos yea, save time also. Haha. And this time, I won't leave the blog to rot, I'll delete it plus my account and all that. So yea...

Haha okay byeee!